Personal Diary

I've always wanted a personal diary, but have not written one for several reasons:
- I find the physical act of writing to be so tedious. My mind works faster than I can write and my handwriting is almost illegible.

- I am afraid that someone will find the diary and read it.

- Perhaps the most honest reason why is that I am afraid to be honest with myself about how I really think and feel. T

This may be the beginning of my own self destruction as I make explicit my most deep and true feelings about....everything.