June 14th

Sunday night. Had a pretty good weekend. Friday night dinner at Union Square Cafe. Food was good, but not awesome. Maybe I ordered wrong. Calamari and then pasta. Saturday walked to the Highline. Kind of neat, but not much to it. Seems like a gimmick to build up that area (Meatpacking) even more. There are more worthy projects in NYC, but when did that ever matter?

Worked on my grand rounds a reasonable amount. On the weekends I am not as tired and able to get some work done, but did not push myself. Then during the week after work I am too tired to do anything. Let's see this week if this holds form.

Mood: -3

Ran today and it felt good. Have to find the discipline to keep at it. Less TV. I am watching NBA finals right now as I write less TV. Lakers about to close out the Magic in 5.

I do not know what I am doing. No definite purpose. Maybe I need to have a kid to give my life meaning. I don't know. What am I looking forward to now? Fourth of July in Denver with the college roommates. Next weekend on call and have to finish the Grand Rounds. Weekend after that probably go home to see my grandfather in Elmira. Next weekend is 4th of July.

Psychologically tired from all those days without a break. I am so pathetic. My life is so easy and I can do whatever I want, but I feel stressed about it anyway. In some ways I guess everything is relative, but still.

Need to be positive. Exercise. Read. Learn. Experience.

Went to Nero's house for a cocktail party. Alice had fun and met some people, but I am just not a social person. Would rather have not gone. So anti-social. I like living on the fringe. Anonymous.

Both Alice and I grew up not being part of many social circles. Right now we have no social circles at all and are fine. Let's see if things change in the future.